AAAgggh!

Warning: Kind of a very long complaint post. Read at your own risk.

 

Well, my life has been very hectic and stressful lately.

It's safe to say I feel a lot like Job right now. No, I haven't dealt with a bunch of loss, but God is definitely testing me. Just when I think I've made it through the storm, there's one more dark cloud that appears. So I am using this to journal my thoughts and worries that I've held in for so long.

 

Firstly, at my work, hours have been cut a lot. Which means less work, therefore less money. Which isn't so horrible because I really only needed it for the essential things, I would just spend a little less on the "special" things.

 

Then, there were some stressful things that came along with college. Not being able to register for classes right away, then worrying I won't get into the classes I need to, and hoping I can get classes to make it into 2 days or less a week so I don't need as much gas to get back and forth to school. This is all taken care of, just hoping I get an internship for my upcoming, and final, quarter.

 

Then, my car starts sounding very loud. Yup, needed a new muffler. Along with that, I needed an oil change and tire rotation. Thankfully, muffler wasn't as expensive as it could have been, and oil change and tire rotation are very great prices at the car place near where I live.

 

About a week or 2 later, I'm driving home from class, and my (driver's side of course) wiper breaks! Great! Just get my muffler fixed, and this happens! Bring it to a different car place (knowing the other place, because it's small, won't be able to fix it). Thankfully, the linkeage had come loose the cost was just for labor, very easy. (Again).

 

Last week, I go to get taxes done. Luckily, getting a lot of tax money back. So I'm thinking: "Yay, I can finally make my bank account larger, really start saving for a car, pay my parents back a little, do a few other things."

 

Thought too soon...

 

This past Saturday, I get home from work, turn my computer on, hear it running, screen is black. This has happened before, so I turn it off, turn it back on, and it's all fine. Nope, not this time, the screen is staying black. We take it to Staples that night, have to leave it there to get a diagnostic done, get a call this morning, the screen is completely broken. I can pay $100-something to get a new screen, but they can't put it on themselves. Or, they can ship it somewhere to get it fixed for $600. So, I'll be checking out a different place to see if I can get an overall cheaper price for the screen to be replaced, hoping it will work out. And I'm using my dad's computer as of now.



Is there a happy ending to this story? Well, yes and no. My trials will all pass (or have passed), but in a way that significantly depletes my bank account.



 

No matter what, I will keep trusting that God knows what He is doing (well, of course He does). Although it's hard to see where He is going with all this, I know He has a plan for me.



And, hopefully this post doesn't make all reading down in the depths about their lives. I know there are people going through much worse problems and that's what I keep saying to myself, "it could be worse". But, I also heard this quote from the show Reba: "Just because people have worse problems than yours, doesn't mean yours don't count." And because of that quote, I am finally writing this post, letting out all this stress before burnout happens.

A very appropriate verse and song for my life at this time:

 

"And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose."

-Romans 8:28